im feeling damn sad.
damn hurt.

he doubts me so much. he feels so much pain.
but i really dunno why he has to feel such a bad pain whn i alrd tell him that there's nth.
perhaps i just cant understand him.

we are like strangers.
suddenly, i feel tat i dunno him.
suddenly everything just hurt so badly.

i dunno how much he wants us. but i feel so grey.
i feel like a large part of my hopes are shattered.
i dunno exactly what is he feeling.
i dun even know if he still want us as much as before, if he still loves me like how he did, if i still mean so much to him.
in fact, there's so many so many qns i need an answer to, but there's no where i can begin frm. and i noe tat pinch of hurt exist in all my thoughts, and even in his too.

i wish i noe what's our future is gg to be like.
im feeling so grey.

words cant represent or bring out wat i wan to say.

i hate all this pain.

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